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Monday, March 28, 2005

Mon, 28 Mar 2005 14:07:47 GMT

bakit ganun? kung sino ang di mo hinahanap siya lagi mong nakikita.. tpos kung sino hinahanap mo yun pa yung wala...

minsan naiisip ko nlang life is so unfair... kasi you'll find your special someone tapos malalaman mo na lang na sinasadya nyang lumayo... sakit dba? bakit ba ganun? naghihirap ka kakahanap at kakatiis sa kanya... tpos siya parang wala lang?! anu ba un... bakit ganun.. unfair dba?

hay... baka ganun talaga... kaya minsan sinasabi ng iba.. dont expect too much kasi baka mabigo ka lang... pero di ba nila naiisip na mahirap? siguro di pa nila nararanasan yung mga sakit na naranasan ko... kasi dapat tinatandaan... kahit gaano kahirap... kahit gaano kasakit... kelangan tumayo... at sabi nga ni ms. sarah...

DEDMA!!!

Saturday, October 30, 2004

Sat, 30 Oct 2004 14:37:44 GMT

anung araw na? ehehe grabe ang bilis ng panahon noh... parang kahapon lang nung nakilala ko siya...... parang kahapon lang nung nawala siya bigla... pero pag inisip mo... tagal na nga.... AUGUST 22, 2004 -> tagal na noh? that day changed a part of me... kasi it brings back happy and sad memories... naalala ko pa talaga lahat... lam nyo bakit ko sinusulat un ngayon dito? kasi gusto ko lang malaman ng taong un na minahal ko siya ng lubusan leche tapos iiwan ako na parang walang nangyari?! hindi sa di ako ok bout that pero... sana at least nagexplain siya ng buo kasi nung nagusap kami parang ako lang nagsasalita... ay hindi pala sa iniwan ako... nagkaroon siya bigla ng iba... leche di nya ba alam kung gaano kasakit un?! sobrang lapit na ako mag give up dahil lang dun... kasi sa sobrang sakit na naramdam ko sino bang hindi?!

ngayon? hindi na ganoong kasakit dahil may isang lalaki na nagtangal ng lahat na yun... si pare... at first feel ko parang di ko pa kaya mawala ung guy na iniwan ako... pero nung tumagal tinulungan niya ako tumayo muli at tinuruan niya ako kung gaano kasarap magmahal at mahalin ka.... kaya ngayon kahit 2 months pa lang kami... ifeel na iba siya... na hindi niya gagawin sa akin ung ginawa nung iba.... kasi i dont want to feel it again... Nicasius Arvin Garcia Yuson... mahal ko siya... at sana im not making another wrong move... kasi this is what im really feelin' ok? i love mah pare so much... and i dont wanna lose him anymore... hindi ko lam kung mababasa kahit sino sa kanila ito pero gusto ko sabhin na... mahirap talaga magmahal ng buong buo ng taong hindi ka naman sigurado kung mahal ka nya... kasi kahit gaano mong pilitin na mahalin ka niya... sigurado ko bang un na talaga nararamdaman niya? hayyyz....

pero just in case na umulit lahat... LOVE SUXZ!!! :P

Friday, October 22, 2004

Fri, 22 Oct 2004 11:12:15 GMT

"The Art Of Letting Go"

OOOOOOHhhhhhhhhh

Put away the pictures.
Put away the memories.
I put over and over
Through my tears
I've held them till I'm blind
They kept my hope alive
As if somehow that I'd keep you here
Once you believed in a love forever more?
How do you leave it in a drawer?

Now here it comes, the hardest part of all
Unchain my heart that's holding on
How do I start to live my life alone?
Guess I'm just learning,
Learning the art of letting go.

Try to say it's over
Say the word goodbye.
But each time it catches in my throat
Your still here in me
And I can't set you free
So I hold on to what I wanted most
Maybe someday we'll be friend's forever more
Wish I could open up that door

Now here it comes, the hardest part of all
Unchain my heart that's holding on
How do I start to live my life alone?
Guess I'm just learning,
Learning the art of letting go

Watching us fade
What can I do?
But try to make it through
the pain of one more day
Without you

Where do I start, to live my life alone?
I guess I'm learning, only learning,
Learning the art of letting go.

ooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
hhhhhhhhhmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

Saturday, September 25, 2004

Sat, 25 Sep 2004 07:53:21 GMT

Monday, September 20, 2004

Mon, 20 Sep 2004 12:58:11 GMT

Anu ba ang ibig sabihin para sa iyo nang salitang makapagisa? Yun ba yung humiling ng panahon para makapagisip at makalimot ang nakaraan? O maghanap ng panibagong mamahalin?! Kahit anu man ang ibig sabihin nito para sa iyo sa aking palagay ito’y naging malaking kasinungalingan lamang…. dahil hindi ka naman magmamahal ng iba kung ako lang ang mahal mo diba?! Hindi ka naman maghahanap ng iba kung ako lang ang nagiisa sa puso mo diba?! Sana mapagisipan mo yan…

Nang sabihin mo na ayaw mo masaktan ang kahit sinong babae gumawa ka sana ng paraan kung ayaw mo talaga maramdaman niya yun…. Pero puro salita na lang pala…. Hindi mo man lang nalaman na marami akong tinalikuran at maraming sakripisyong ginawa ko para sa iyo… pero hindi mo nalaman yun dahil ako naman may kagustuhan nun eh.. para mapatunayan kong mahal kita…. Sabi mo pa nga gusto mo maging katulad tayo ng dati…. Pero parang ikaw ang nagmukhang may ayaw noon? Kasi ikaw yung nawala na lang ng bigla at lumayo sa akin…

Ok lang naman dahil alam ko nakahanap ka na ng kapalit diba?! Wala nang ibang taong katulad mo… at kahit kailan hindi na ako makakahanap ng ganoong tao ulit… ikaw ang kauna unahang lalaki na minahal ko ng lubusan…. Ikaw din lang ang lalaking na biglang tinalikuran ang lahat ng hindi man nagpapaliwanag nga maayos…. SANA SINABI MO NA LANG SA AKIN NA AYAW MO SA AKIN AT MAY MAHAL KA NG IBA KAYSA PINALIGOY MO PA ANG LAHAT AT NAKASAKIT PA SA AKIN…. Maraming salamat na lang sa mga alaala pero hindi ko lubusang maisip na ginanito mo ang isang taong minahal ka ng buong buo at hindi ka iniwan kahit kailan ng buhay mo…. Kasi ikaw yung nangiwan diba?! Sana maging maligaya ka sa piling ng iba....

paalam na…….

nagiisang teddy ko pero hindi ang nagiisang teddy niya….

(MAGSAMA KAYO NG TEDDY MO!!!!)

Friday, August 27, 2004

Fri, 27 Aug 2004 23:52:56 GMT

trying to move on II.....

its so easy to move on.... but do you know what is hard? its hard to forget the person who you once loved... losing that person gives us lots of pain... but now lets look at the other meaning of moving on... when your moving on you can never forget anything that happened to you from teh past.. when your talking to the phone... texting each other till morning... chatting with each other... and have met for the first time... i still cant forget the day we met each other... i was so nervous then... but later it turned into one of my best days... after that... it all changed.....

people kept on telling me... that's puppy love... your only a little girl... you still dont know if you really experienced love... still... i dont know what i have felt for him.. it must have been love... or only affection... but in that time it felt so good to love and to be loved in return... so nice...

now? i dont know exactly how to feel... as i move on... am i going to be mad? am i going to keep on crying... or to totally forget everything... but surely i can really never tell it at all.... but frankly.... it was unforgetable...

as part of my moving on.... everything that happened to me will be a life's lesson... every mistake that i made can be changed... and ever pain that i felt can be removed...

maybe everbody is right... i am just a teenager... i still havent "EXPERIENCE" true love yet.....

Thursday, August 26, 2004

Thu, 26 Aug 2004 12:49:38 GMT

trying to move on...

moving on is difficult for other people to realize.. but its a must in every one of us... we cant keep on loving someone that doesnt want us anymore.. for the boys.. they are insensitive so much that they always tell you... I DONT WANT TO HURT YOU... without knowing the fact that he already have hurted you... damn!! for girls.. as from my experience we kept on crying and telling ourselves we cant move on.. damn it! we can!!! even step by step we can make it through this!! we just need to be strong.. and realize that in this fucking world everything is UNFAIR!!

Unfair?! when we have found someone we will love forever.. and feels the same way.. you will end up losing him and be hurt... and tells you in the end that he wanted to be friends with you?! he doesnt fucking know that its hard to forget everything that has just happened!! and dont you know that its not that easy for us to be like the same again?! think about that!!

everyone of us need to move on with or without that person... u know y? tangina yan!! lalaki lang yan!!! tangina!!! they are little immature piece of bullshit!!! they never know what a woman feels.. they dont even care?! baket? sino ka na ba ngayon sa buhay niya?!

(sensya po sa mura.. ehehe... this was not meant para patamaan ang kahit sino kundi ang realidad ng buhay... ty)

Wednesday, August 25, 2004

Wed, 25 Aug 2004 07:51:04 GMT

MeMoRy

whenever i remember you
i ask myself if this feeling is true
then my heart slowly reply
i love you and i wont deny

i remember your face, your smile
kept me thinking bout you for awhile
and the way you talk to me
melts my heart, cant you see

im dying without you here
cause you help me forget my fear
without you i am nothing
and i feel i am missing something

you're all i want
you're all i need
and you'll forever be
the person in my memory

TeDdY.....

Tuesday, August 24, 2004

Tue, 24 Aug 2004 10:26:57 GMT

hindi mo pa nararanasan ang buhay pag di ka pa nasasaktan... kahit mahirap unawain at kalimutan ang mga nangyari... wag ka mawalan ng loob kasi ikaw ay maaring makapulot ng malaking aral sa tuwing ika'y nasasaktan.... kasi ito ay parte na ng buhay ng tao.... wag ka matakot na masaktan.. isipin mo na lang na ito ay isang pagsubok sa buhay mo at ng lahat... at may Diyos lagi na gumagabay sayo... magpakailanman

Monday, August 23, 2004

Mon, 23 Aug 2004 12:09:13 GMT

pls teach me to be strong.. help me realize that this love is wrong.. that i should wipe these tears alone.. and i should start a new life and MOVE ON...

bat ganun? kung kelan nakakita ka na ng taong mahal na mahal mo... biglang mawawala ang lahat... biglaan na naman.... lam mo di ako sanay sa biglaan... kasi parang ok lang tayo that day tapos nung gabi bigla ako magugulat sa sinabi mo... ayaw moko saktan?! tangina yan! sinaktan mo na ako! hindi mo lang alam na kahit ano kaya kong tiniisin for you kasi ganoon kita ka mahal! pero parang feel ko what i have done is wrong... kasi di ako pede magreklamo... baket sino ba ako sa buhay mo?! hamak na isang frend diba?! i was so flattered na you were so honest about everything... lalo lang nakakasar kasi the more we talk the more i fall in love with you.. lam mo ikaw lang ang lalaki na willing ako magpakamatay at mamatay... kasi sobra kitang minahal... pero seems like its nothing to you... kung sana nakikita mo ang nangyayari sa buhay ko... pero hindi eh.. lam mo sometimes gusto ko na lang sumuko... actually yun na nga ginagawa ko eh.. pero iniisip ko.. titiisin ko lahat kasi mahal kita... pero palala ng palala... di ko na kaya ang sakit... lam mo ang hirap.. at alam ko nahihirapan ka din.. di ko na alam sasabihin sa iyo... kasi i think na wala na ako sa buhay mo... so maybe kahit masakit kelangan ko na mag move on... pero nasa puso ko pa rin ikaw... pero for know... u want to be alone?! then fine! alam ko naman na ako lang ang kaibigan mo tuwing may problema ka at tuwing wala ka makausap... parang kung kelan ka may kailangan dun ka lalapit... ayan ang tunay na masakit...